Saturday, June 10, 2006

Gratitude

I was talking with someone yesterday about the difference between understanding and compassion. As we've come out to more and more people, a select few seem to have both understanding about why we've made the choices we have, and compassion for how difficult our road has been and the struggle we've been through. Some react with understanding, but not really compassion: "So, you're gay. I get it. Move on." But some of the most touching reactions have been from our Mormon friends and family who don't really understand, and have sadness for our divorce and our leaving the church, but are able to express an incredible amount of compassion anyway.

It's easy to have compassion for someone who is in a difficult situation that you've been in before, or that you can easily relate to-- rejection while dating, losing a job, becoming ill, etc. It's also relatively easy to have compassion for someone who experiences a loss that you can't imagine, but is common within human experience, such as the death of a child or spouse.

It's one of the hardest things in this life to have real compassion for those you don't understand, and I wanted to thank all of you who have expressed that for us. I have felt so much love over the past few weeks, and though I feel the need to explain my choices so that you might gain greater understanding, I did not want it to go unsaid that I am incredibly grateful for the outpouring of love we've received. I am proud to have surrounded myself with such a generous group of people, and know that I can expect to receive love and support from you in the future, no matter what.

1 comment:

Mike Kessler said...

Dearest Keri, there are hundreds more out here reading your story whom you have never met, and who have the greatest compassion for you. Both you and Chris are a model, I think, for what love truly is -- love for each other and for yourselves. I'm so glad you both have remained good and loving friends. I've never understood how some people can just close the door on someone they love because something has happened that changes the equation. Yes, Chris is gay, but he's still Chris. This, I know, is a practical divorce and not one that signifies a diminution of your love for each other or your commitment to caring for your children. May you continue to have abundant light and love.